I still cannot listen to music.  This is annoying the hell out of me.

I have tried now, repeatedly, to listen to Spotify.  It’s lasted slightly less than 15 minutes.  I get a splitting headache.  I turn it off.  I wait 72 hours.  I try to listen to music.  I fail.  I turn it off.

This has been consistently one of the most frustrating part of the pandemic.  I enjoy listening to music.  I have a giant ridiculous playlist I’ve spent months+ curating full of terrible things I enjoy listening to from the 90s.  It’s a huge list of Alice in Chains, Nirvana and Radiohead.  I want to listen to it.  It puts me in a better place.

And I cannot. When I turned it on I get a giant throbbing uncontrollable migraine and it’s like glass in my brain.

I am, right now, listening to MyNoise Irish Coast.  It helps break up my brain and put me in a good place.

I put this on the list of things I cannot do right now.  I cannot read dense nonfiction books.  I cannot read math (although I can watch Youtube videos!) I cannot pay attention to anyone droning on.  I cannot watch really hard core serious TV.

And I cannot listen to my stupid music playlist.

Like everyone else, I desperately want this thing to end.  I really want to go sit in Kloby’s and eat a half a rack of ribs, drink a beer off the beer menu I can never read, and watch live sports.  I want to wait in line at Five Guys.  I want to sit in a movie theater for some Marvel summer blockbuster superhero movie.  I want to go and putz around in a damn comic book store.

But without leadership, and clear guidance, and a plan, this isn’t going to end anytime soon and it might be a very long time before I hear Kurt Cobain again (even though, yes, he is very dead).  Our leadership has decided to indulge instead in ridiculous conspiracy theories and partisan politics instead of the, yes, unfun job of actually governing in a crisis.

The entire plan right now is simply to declare the crisis over and move on to more fun things.  They don’t actually and fundamentally want to govern.  They want the fun bits — being on TV, posturing, being feted by crazy people — without the hard part — actually running a thing.  The actual running a thing isn’t fun.  Running things means meetings, and decisions, and getting up to speed, and listening to people, and making ugly choices, and metrics.  That sucks, that’s boring, so let’s go light everything on fire instead.

Because of the total lack of leadership, I don’t know when the next time I’ll sit in Kloby’s.  Thankfully they have curbside pickup, but that’s not the point.

This is an interesting article in Bloomberg: Does Donald Trump want to be re-elected? He definitely wants to be re-elected the head of the conspiracy wing of the Republican Party.  Does he want to be President?  He doesn’t want to be President now.  He doesn’t want to be President.  He wants to be a TV Host who plays the part of President on TV.

Don’t get me started on Hogan and his super dumb reopening of Maryland.  Apparently, we opened Maryland everywhere but in places people actually live.  If you don’t live here, you don’t know that Maryland is, for the most part, totally empty except along these skinny corridors — up 270, up 95, down 50 to Annapolis, and kinda 32 past Ford Meade.  We opened up all the Maryland Man Eating Deer and Andy Harris’s house to the coronavirus but all the people are still locked down.

And now, the stats:

  • 1,438,322 confirmed positive.  Except Donald Trump doesn’t want anyone to be tested any more because the stats make him look bad.
  • 86,830 confirmed dead.  Except according to the GOP, all 90K people died of something other than coronavirus.  Like, 90K people all up and died of pneumonia at the same time.
  • 318,036 recovered.
  • 36,986 cases in MD,  1,843 dead
  • 1 out of 246 people have it here in Howard County

We are 75% of the way to the total American casualty count in the Great War.  Think about that and let it sink in.  V-Day.  Never Again.  The War to End All Wars.